The Grid is Rigged to Sell us Something

Call it a moment of weakness, but I am rage quitting twitter (x) because it has to be the biggest cesspool of cancerous topics and ideas that I have ever been a part of.  This was the only major social media channel that I have engaged in, and recently, it has without a doubt made me a worse person for being a part of it.  This isn't only a problem for this particular social network, but its ideas are less policed than other platforms and hence, the worse of the worse are able to sneak by and try to take your precious mental space.  All social media is pure cancer and has caused the world much turmoil at the expense of pretty much every social institution known to man.

I have logged off of my twitter account and will no longer be using it.  I am hoping this social experiment allows me to get more peace of mind, because I know that my mental state has suffered greatly for being a part of it.  I want to build my mental muscle to completely ignore this type of content and withdraw from engaging in it ever again.  The political landscape in this country, and the world, have lost their minds.  Everyone is distrusting of everyone.  No one knows what is real or what is fake.  Assassination attempts are being questioned as fake events and these conspiracy theorists are having a profound impact on people's trust of the system as a whole.

Even I do not know what to believe.  I constantly am getting into political discussions, throwing insults to people I have never even met, all for what?  A few clicks with my twitter premium subscription?  It is Ludacris that I even bought a sub in the first place and have immediately canceled it.  Everyone is trying to sell you something.  Everyone is trying to manipulate us in one way or another.  I can't seem to go two feet without something trying to sell me on a product or an idea that I can care less about.  I suppose even I am trying to sell you, the reader, on my idea that we are constantly trying to be sold by the establishment of capitalism and corporate greed.  It is sickening to live on this timeline where it appears that our sole purpose in life is to consume something.

I look at the AI generated photo above and I yearn for the peace of mind a hypothetical individual might have by living off the land and living off the grid.  This timeline is just too much sometimes for me to handle.  It feels like my grip on reality is slipping and that I cannot seem to understand what my life's purpose is, who I am supposed to be, what I am supposed to do.  It leads me down dark paths of thought because the world continues to change in ways that I cannot fathom and I am being left behind.  I was told this would happen to my generation, especially if we did not stick with the program of using our college degrees to get a good job and stay there till we retired.  I just did not think I would have this feeling of hopelessness that I have right now.

I am living off of a small nest egg, and I consider myself lucky that my family was able to leave anything at all for me and my brother.  Soon however, this nest egg will be gone, and my life will need to make a drastic change.  Will I have the mental fortitude to go back to the traditional work force?  Or will I have to become some sort of homeless person begging for money on the side of the streets?  I really do not know what path my life is going to take at this point.  It could go to either extreme if I continue to feel this hopeless and useless and as individual.  What am I missing in my life?  Should I pretend to believe in God and that his salvation will help me?  I just don't know anymore.

In any event, I need to clear my mind of bad influences.  I need to have whatever influence I have in a pure form without having my mind be manipulated by all of these forms of media which seek to sell me a product or an idea to feel satisfied with myself.  I need to not feel so alone, because I know many people right now are feeling the exact same way I am.  I need to find a way to mobilize myself and others to improve our conditions, to find ways to actually go back to a timeline when the internet did not exist and we simply enjoyed each other's company in more traditional ways.  I am not a conservative, but I do believe that this world needs to go back to a time where in person interactions were valued instead of the quick dopamine hits of online and superficial interactions.  Maybe this is just a moment of weakness, but I yearn for something much more than I currently have in order to find meaning in my life.  Only time will tell how I make this happen.

Until next time,

Blackboa