Month / Quarter End Recap 3/31/26
Today we reach the last day of the month and the last day of the 1st quarter of 2026. This year has been quite a tumultuous year for me personally with a lot of changes happening to my life. During this quarter, I decided to not push streaming as hard as I have been and instead treat it more like a social hobby rather than a career. The last 10 years of my life was put into streaming, and I am grateful for the experiences, but I have come to realize that for now, I can only put hobby level energy into it as other things in my life are more pressing.
The first quarter of the year has been an adjustment, mainly mentally, but also physically. I decided to end my ADHD medications and even gave up coffee. I went off all of my anti-depressants and instead am only taking medication to help keep my blood pressure low and to subdue my migraine pain. That one achievement, essentially removing any migraine or headache pain that I have suffered for years by taking a new medication called Qulipta, has fundamentally changed my life and habits. This enlightened state was made possible by visiting the Neurologist in late February, and since then, I have not had a migraine or headache day for over a month now.
As a result of my newfound capacity as a person, I have started heading to the gym or at least going to the local park to shoot some basketball. This touching of grass has had a positive impact on my outlook overall, but there is still a lot of work to do to get myself to a place of further joy and enlightenment. One area of concern is my food intake. I still have not gotten back to a healthy food diet and have been eating out, spending money frivolously and unhealthily. There is a part of me that is not allowing myself to get healthier by putting off healthy eating by taking the convenient options. This will change however, as starting on April 1st, the start of the next quarter of the year, I plan on being a demon (in a good way) as it relates to my food intake.
My stream continues to have people who I love attending it, even though our numbers are much lower. These people have been with me for years and I truly am grateful to them for continuing to show up despite my lack of time and attention towards streaming. For next quarter, what I hope I can do is find a game to be consistent in, one that I can stream every time I go live and just shoot the shit with the community on a more consistent basis. For now, I have downloaded Guild Wars 2, a game that I have played in the past but have not completed any of the recent expansions and most of the PvE content in. I think if I can stick to that game for a while, I may be able to bring a decent group of my community along with me for the ride.
My reading of the essential law of attraction collection has helped me revisit a part of my spiritual life which tries to see the positive in the world so that I may bring more positive outcomes to me. The book has helped me reframe things, and I have taken action to be more social, including applying to jobs, going out more regularly to eat at restaurants, and visiting my family members more often. While I still am very much a hermit, I am beginning to build a resistance to things that cause me stress, something that I have not been able to do for 10 years. I again have to attribute a big part of this to no longer having migraine pain regularly, but at least I am taking advantage of the situation and doing things to better myself.
Over the next month, I have a number of additional appointments set up with doctors to continue my health recovery. I am meeting with my Neurologist again to go over the medication and how it has worked for me, as well as setting up an additional appointment with a Neurosurgeon to assess the MRI I just had on my brain. I have non-cancerous tumors in the back of my head that I have to monitor every 5 years, and the surgeon will tell me if they are a problem and if we should operate to remove them. Part of me wants them removed, even if they aren't a problem, but I of course will go with the advice of the experts on the matter. Brain surgery is no joke. I also have another appointment with an ear nose and throat specialist to perform a nose camera assessment to determine how bad my deviated septum is, which is a partial block of the nasal passages. If I can get that cleared up and have a much better time breathing by having surgery to remove the blockage, that would be yet another step towards recovery and breathing better, which could have far ranging impacts to my capacity to take on more in terms of exercise and energy.
I enter this next month with optimism, knowing that I have full control over most of the outcomes that I am expecting over the coming days, weeks, and months ahead. I appreciate everything this world has given me, as it has made me a stronger person over the years even when I was close to giving up. Now that I see the path forward, I feel compelled to make progress every day so that I can lead a life that I can be truly happy with and joyous in.
Until next time,
Blackboa