It's Been 30 Days of Daily Blogs
30 days ago, I decided to start a blog to document a journey that I am currently going through, a journey to find meaning in my life and catalogue the ups and downs of the process. My goal was to post a blog at least once per day on whatever topic came to mind, from my gaming experiences to my personal struggles with physical and mental health, all in an effort to form a habit that I believe will be very valuable over time. 30 days later, we have stuck to this habit, and I have found it to be extremely therapeutic and enjoyable. Even though my purpose for this blog has not been to gain any traction in terms of getting views from people outside of my immediate community, I have noticed that we have been averaging close to 100 views a day since we started.
My search for meaning continues. This blog has not solved that problem that I have with motivation in many areas of my life. In fact, the blog is perhaps the only thing that has seen positive progress during these 30 days. My streaming on twitch has been regular which is good, but my overall progress on having streaming be a career again is not doing so well. I also have gained a lot of weight over the last couple of months despite being among the happiest I have been in quite some time, with my weight growing to 350 pounds, a gain of 20 pounds over the last two months. My energy levels have also been sporadic, and I have finally decided to quit all forms of caffeine, including my recent addictions to Energy Drinks and Soda.
Despite some setbacks, I view this blog as my bedrock. It allows me to discuss the ups and downs of life and make changes for the better. Since my doctor's appointment last Friday, I have made some positive changes in going through the process of eliminating the energy drink and soda addiction and yesterday was by far my greatest feelings of withdrawal from these substances. Along with this change, I have also decided to limit the amount of food I eat and the quality of said food, resulting in eating salad and fruits as my primary food choices instead of going to McDonalds and other restaurants and ordering highly processed and unhealthy foods. I even decided to go on a food fast first thing every morning and not eat anything for breakfast and wait until lunch. I believe this has started to shrink my stomach a little bit and curbed my appetite in the process.
Once I get to a point where the withdrawals are gone and I am able to hold up my end of the bargain as it relates to fasting and eating healthier, the next major milestone habit I would like to implement is going to the gym and exercising daily. I hope for this milestone to begin on May 1st, 2026, but I also have to ensure my eating habits are solidified so that I don't make excuses for eating poorly again. I am visualizing however how much weight I would shed if I was able to do both of those things at once. Weight would just melt off of me since I am so very heavy at it is, that the initial weight loss would be substantial. I have been through such a transformation previously when I was 310 pounds in high school and remember how quickly the weight came off. The fact that I am now 350 pounds and 42 years old, I believe it will shed just as fast even though my age likely has slowed my metabolism somewhat.
So, what will the next 30 days of blogging hold for me and my readers? Your guess is as good as mine. I hope to continue much of the same content around gaming, sharing personal triumphs and struggles, and delivering authentic moments as we have been during the first 30 days. Again, I have really enjoyed blogging, and I believe this blog can turn into something truly transformative not only for myself, but for my readers as well. The habit of blogging is feeling secure, I find myself looking forward to writing on here every day, and I plan to for the foreseeable future. Thanks again for being here for my first 30 days!
Until next time,
Blackboa