A Moment of Weakness and its Negative Vibration
Yesterday, I had my first moment of weakness since I started eating healthier a couple of weeks ago. If you are just catching up with us, I am currently on a physical and mental health transformation where I am walking daily, going to the gym, and eating healthier. For two weeks now I have been extremely disciplined, but yesterday I had a moment of weakness when I went to the movie theatre to see Mortal Combat 2. After purchasing my ticket, I decided to buy a peanut M&M at the concession stand. I at least didn't buy any soda and instead opted for a bottled water, but I immediately regretted my decision.
You see, when you start eating healthier and caring about yourself, you feel very guilty when you have something unhealthy because you realize that all of your hard work is not being rewarded by having a "cheat day", but rather, sabotaged. The momentary flavor of the chocolate peanut M&Ms actually started making me feel sick and I almost even got a minor headache because I was beating myself up so bad by even eating them. Regardless, I ate the whole pack in the moments before the movie even started, hating every minute of it. Historically, when I cheat on my health and fitness goals, I normally end up going on a negative spiral, but not this time.
This blog is highlighting these moments so that I do not repeat these mistakes again. It really is never worth it to have anything unhealthy anymore. Food is nothing more than sustenance, and when you abuse food and use it to poison your body with unhealthy foods or try to use food for comfort when you are feeling sad, you are seriously hurting yourself both physically and mentally. Granted, candy is not the only bad food for you, and I know that I have had some not so healthy meals over the last two weeks, but there are degrees of severity with food that you eat that is unhealthy, and that small bag of M&Ms was nearly 700 calories.
The good news is, after this post I will stop beating myself up over this. Instead, I immediately am aware of my negative thoughts to unhealthy foods and now I am choosing to focus on what I do want, a healthy and happy life filled with joy and infinite energy and vitality. I am picturing foods that are nourishing me and helping my body to operate in its best possible way, cleansing my body of all toxins and utilizing the good nutrients they provide to cure all of my aches, pains, skin conditions, and keep me generally in perfect health. As I wait for my testosterone results from my Doctor, I know too that I will soon have all the extra vitality I need when I get supplements for testosterone which will help me with my overall energy levels.
Our lives are so precious and to continue to fill our bodies with food that is literal poison is not serving us short term, long term, or any term. Once we can realize this important fact, we then become aware of the power we have to change our habits now, to begin anew by caring about our physical and mental health and start doing the things necessary to change our lives for the better. I wish you all a wonderful start to the week, and it's time to go to my morning walk.
Until next time,
Blackboa
P.S. Mortal Combat 2 was entertaining combat wise, but not great otherwise.